Hyperfixation

 So, I’ve been in a state of hyperfixation as I’ve been working on the website. I mean that very literally. I’ve sort of forgotten I need to take my meds and just generally haven’t been taking good care of myself. I haven’t forgotten to eat, at least, thankfully! Testosterone had my back on that. ^_^

But yeah I’m super high and I think I broke out of that hyperfixated state finally! It feels nice, I got showered and ready for work way ahead of time and even refilled my pill calendar! I’m sitting at my desk here with Odette now and it feels good.

Like, I missed Odette so much. The office had kind of gotten taken over by… Well, my late cat Aubrey had an unidentified pancreatic problem and the office quickly became the “litter boxes and sad cat in pain” room. (Maybe it’s good I went into that hyperfixation state? To deal with that grief? Who knows)

I badly want to get back to work on faceups again. Odette has her default still and while there’s nothing wrong with her default face up, I just want to personalize her a bit after all this time. I don’t know if she’ll be first— I’m suffering with a shitty bout of decision paralysis there— but maybe I should just paint whoever feels good on the day I finally sit down and get to work. If I had the chance today and didn’t have to work today but Odette would be my choice today, if I could.

Maybeeee tomorrow before work if I get a nice early start and do dishes tonight?! Yeah like I could work on her anddddd someone else with the same colors in their face as her (that’s the hard part >_<). I like to paint two heads in one session because I can paint the other one while the first one dries, and then just alternate from there. 

Shigehide? ARJAVA, who has sat blank on my desk for literal YEARS at this point? Okay like let me her her this is hilarious she’s so neglected 

Arjava is a very old character at this point and I think I’m just going to let this character have a hypersexualized rokku gyaru phase ok. Don’t shame me. This is for Arjava, not me.